It is hard yes espeically since yesterday I found Cinnamon's(My dog I had to putdown) Socking for Christmas. I wanted to cry but I am broken and have a hard time showing true emotion but I do feel a lot of pain still. Yet Iknow Cinnamon is in better place. Where theris no cancer, no catarcts, no fatty tumor, no arhtrist(sp) Ijust want this year to end yes. But I know over time Iwill heal and healing is long thing my friend. It take time. What I did was I put her collar around my stuffed tiger who was the same age as her maybe even older and I sleep with it every night.